is it something i said, or need to say?

i wish i could hug you.

youre so close but i barely know you

i want to tell you i love you

but you'd probably just laugh or frown.

i have no idea how you'd react to any sign of affection i gave you.

so i don't.

but i wish i could.

i wish you knew i cared.

the last time i hugged you was probably a decent six years ago.

you pushed me away.