A penny for your thoughts?

just please. i can't and it's swallowing me. the bird outside my window is crying and the air is hot and dry. i can see the ground beginning to crack, small fault lines running back and forth, side to side. there is no water. no rain. every breath catches and every blink hurts. i can feel the blood in my veins, like fire. there is no ice. i drank out of a dirty mug today, only realising when it was too late.

i just need it to rain.