not therapeutic at all, now i just want to send them. but i could never.

i think it would make them sad. maybe even make them feel guilty. that's not what i want.

i want to say my life bothers me. i want to say that people hurt me and i wish my life was perfect. but how selfish is that? to brood on my troubles, to let myself get down about things that, when put into perspective, mean nothing. people are so much worse off than me, and they would consider my life to be amazing. so i sit here and say i have no problems.

the trouble is, that just makes the ache - the sick feeling - have no cause. and an ache without a cause can't be solved.

i want to exist above the clouds, out in space, on the dark side of the moon.