24/10 Thoughts

counting down from 100
what am i counting down to?

i like dreams.
i like imagining things that won't happen.
sometimes more than reality.
it's probably why i love books.
i'm half way through four different ones at the moment.

i just watched the newish Star Trek movie.
i don't understand how there could have been an alternate reality when Nero and Spock were always going to get pulled into the black hole, so Nero was always going to get revenge.
How was there a future that existed where Kirk's dad was alive? What changed? ;c
What was the other path?
Please. ):

20/10

I think i'll elaborate, because that last post has made me think about all the things i can't stand.
maybe getting it off my chest will help.

tapping spoons against bowls/plates.
cutlery being dropped into the cutlery drawer.
people nose whistling when they breathe.
scuffing shoes.
cutting nails with nail clippers.
sneezing.


eating;
people taking abrupt bites of crunchy food.
people chewing with excessive spit in their mouth, or just juicy food.
people chewing slowly to try be quiet, when it's not.
swallowing.


that's all i can think of at the moment.

Misophonia

i'm not alone. aha.

i'm counting down
it'll take me a while to realise there's nothing i'm waiting for.
nothing i'm looking foward to.
counting down is just a way to reassure myself that i'm moving foward.
i'm sick of being frozen in time.
it's like walking in a straight line
but you can't see any progress
because to either side of you there's an on going white wall
beneath your feet there's nothing but murky tiles,
and high above you there's a never ending pitch black sky.
no progress, just wasted energy.
so i'll stop now, and i'll find a way around this.
i'll climb those sky high walls.
and i'll get out of here.
take my hand,
i'll miss you if i go alone.

15/10 If you ever said you miss me, dont say you never lied.

Whatever poison's in this bottle will leave me broken, sore and stiff.
But it's the genie at the bottom who I'm sucking at.
He owes me one last wish.
So here's a present to let you know I still exist.
I hope the next boy that you kiss has something terribly contagious on his lips.

12/10

when I was little my sister used to record me on her tape player declaring my love for Stephen Gately of Boyzone. He was my favourite.

I'm devastated.

R.I.P Stephen :l

6/10

do you know what i love?

being bored, being bored and typing things into the web address thing

www.iamawesome.com
www.iamarobot.co.uk
www.imaninja.com


:D

4/10

Saw the girl I know from my job, I think that she must think that I'm retarded. I act so dumb when I get started. Time to cut my hair and get it parted. And we go, but they don't know us. Goes to show we're not the same. Keep it in, 'cause they don't know this. Let it out, but not today.