27/8

"It probably saw or heard something that made it pay attention."

i love averagecats.com

26/8

interesting how fast time passes
its interesting how soon writing this will be in my past
how these words will soon be followed by more that im yet to think of.
words i hadn't anticipated
theres no need to fear the future
because if you think about it, it's basically already the past.

24/8

i agree with the decision to allow Al Megrahi to go home, and be with his family to die.
in my opinion, so long as he's not plotting more people's deaths, i believe he has every right to be in the company of the people he cares about.
people tell me i wouldn't think that if he killed someone i knew.
but really, although i would be devastated and would never forgive him, and would be terrified of him killing more people, it's my belief, it's the core of who i am, to not want revenge, or "justice"

i just don't see how making him die in prison helps the families that lost someone.

14/8

i try to tolerate everyone. i really do.

i try to accept peoples opinions and actions

but when someone shouts abuse at someone they don't know - for a reason not even remotely plausable, it really ticks me off.

i don't want to hear you telling him he's an 'ugly ginga'

i don't want you to tell her she's 'fucking fat and might as well be dead'

i dont want people to be so cruel.

i reeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllllly don't understand any of it.

and when i'm on the bus going home, and the person next to me starts yelling insults out the window at someone, they don't know, walking down the street, i'm not just going to sit there.

she might think i'm an uptight bitch, but to be honest, i don't care.

i wasn't mean.

i asked her if she knew the person, then asked what she'd feel like if a stranger told her she was a dirty fuck and to go back to her own country.

she pulled a face and shrugged it off. but she stopped abusing people.

i'm sorry. i'm sorry that i may or may not have made her feel guilty.

but that boy was beautiful, and happy.

he was happy until she got to him.

i don't want revenge/ justice. i want understanding.

please.

i could write something profound.
something that would make you think about your life, and all the things you've done wrong.
i could write something to make you regret your choices.
but what does it accomplish?





don't regret the choices you've made in the past, because at the time, it was what you wanted.
it made you happy. if those choices make you ashamed today, don't make them tomorrow, but don't hate yesterday.

OH HOWIE.

The dawn is breaking. A light shining through. You're barely waking, and I'm tangled up in you. Yeah, I'm open, you're closed. I follow, you'll go. I worry I won't see your face light up again. Even the best fall down sometimes, even the wrong words seem to rhyme. Out of the doubt that fills my mind, I somehow find you and I collide. I'm quiet you know. You make a first impression. I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind. Even the best fall down sometimes, even the stars refuse to shine. Out of the back you fall in time, I somehow find you and I collide. Don't stop here, I lost my place, I'm close behind. Even the best fall down sometimes, even the wrong words seem to rhyme. Out of the doubt that fills your mind you finally find you and I collide.

smile.

gavin degraw - belief
beautiful.

everything is good.
it doesn't matter that im falling behind in everything
and it doesn't matter that everyone expects that i'll magically be able to catch up
because maybe i will
have hope
have ideas
have love
i love my bestfriend
i love my family
i love company
and being alone.
alone, not lonely.
i love the sky, and that it's out of our reach
i love the earth, and that it keeps me grounded.
i love acoustic songs
and seeing people who love eachother.
i love generosity, and compassion.
i love smiles that reach eyes.
i love seeing people that are happy.
and witnessing someone be cheered up.
i love people who want to help.
i love honest, true, pure love.

the cartilage that holds my ribs to my sternum is inflamed.
apparently it takes about 6months to 1year to go away :l

i like the scene aesthetic.
they are sweet.

it's half past one in the morning. i'm tired.
but i'm not in bed?

going to see a scary movie tomorr...today.
it's not a good idea.

i wonder how many people see me when i don't see them,
'cause i have my light on and the curtains open, the street is dark.

i'm unmotivated, and i can't imagine my future.
but i plan. and don't plan. it's a paradox.

i want to travel to svalbard, chile, canada, south africa.
i want to go to peru and visit machu picchu


i'm going to bed.
i will dream before i sleep.

the scene aesthetic.

august.
eight.
rua.
thousand.
neuf.
1.23am
it's early
it's late
it's new.
it's old.
it's a start.
but it's not the end.