thinking too much.

i need something.
everyone has a hook. something that makes them matter. something interesting.
i have nothing.
i am nothing, and i want to be something.
i don't want people to know me, i just want to know people.
i want to know your secrets, and i want you to know i won't share them with anyone.
i want people to want to know me, i want to be interesting enough to have people think, 'wow, who's that?'

i dont want to do things that make me unhappy.
i had a revelation. i think you should think about it.
why do you do things that make you unhappy, and what you get out of it, is nowhere near being good enough?
why do it? when there's nothing to gain.

-my seminar, i don't think i'll do it. i don't like public speaking, so getting up infront of a class and trying to teach/speak to them seems stupid.
pro's and cons
con's - embarrassment, stress.
pro's -
it's only three credits, there's nothing to gain from doing it.
this is my life.

my life

i'm not building myself into a person with alot of education behind me, so i can start my life
this is my life.

why would i do things that make me unhappy.
i dont want to be unhappy.

i don't want to die happy.
i want to live happy.