society

i've been thinking a lot and im not sure yet if what i've come to the conclusion of is good or bad. it's that all that /really/ matters in life is kindness, and respecting other people.

the society we've created is one of a lot of pressure and little success.

i want to live without stress, i want to know that if i don't pass level three at school, it doesn't mean that i've failed. i want to believe that if i've been good to the people i've met, and helped out where i can, that it matters. i know it does. i know that if i accept who i am, and accept the people around me for who they are and be open to everyone's opinions that i've lived a full life. helping other people makes me happy. i think that's the general consensus, and so i don't understand why people are cruel. not only does it not make the person being picked on sad, and the person being cruel usually feels at least a little bad after.i feel like i understand Christopher McCandless more and more each day. society frightens me. people are rich, and they don't spend all their money, but they don't help people who are living off a piece of bread every second day. jobs these days are based around fueling egos, not helping to maintain a healthy life.

i dont want a job. i don't want a television. i don't want one thousand friends. i don't want to hurt anyone ever again. i don't expect people to like me. i just want respect.i want to be able to live my life the way i want to. i want to be able to lay across two seats in a half empty bus and go to sleep while i'm waiting to get to my stop, without people asking me why. i want to be able to sit down abruptly on an empty footpath to admire the wildlife without having people bike past and call me homeless as if its something to be ashamed of.

i want to be free from society's judgement and rules.