Clearing My Head.

I had everything to say. Everything. But I can't remember anything now that I've actually started.

BLAH ahah

I feel like I've tried everything to understand people my age. Actually just people in general, but I can't relate to much when they need me to. There's a few people I get on with, and I hope that the feeling is mutual when I say I enjoy their company.

I'm not going to lie and say I understand. I'm not going to lie and say I agree.

I have strange opinions on many things. Opinions that would make the majority of society think I'm weird. But that's okay. Maybe I am.

Hah, I've discovered, with the help of Cree, that a lot of the songs I thought were happy and upbeat, are actually depressing and upbeat. Like MMMBop? and Seattle - The Classic Crime.

I'm fooled by the tone and the fast beat. But that's okay. I still like 'em.

Lucas sent me the shittest song in existance today. Aahhahaha.

I can't stop listening to it. I think I like it.

I hope you're happy. Because happiness makes everything a lot easier to deal with. And I'd hate to be the only one smiling. I'd feel a bit guilty to be honest.

Happiness

Sometimes I wonder if I'm happy.
I'm pretty sure I am.
But this weekend I know I was.
I was with Cree, and she makes me smile.
I think that if I could live without human contact, you know, isolate myself from everything, I'd rather not.
Because it would be nice, but it's nice with the friends I have at the moment, if you get me?
It's like, why would I push that away when I like it.
Hah.
I don't know, I'd still like to be like Christopher.
That seems fun.
Without the dying bit.

Plastic Craptastic

I was thinking about recorders and how truely wonderful they are.
Like seriously, I remember lifting up my desk lid and taking it out to play 'GAB GAB BAG GAB' with the whole class. And they just brought so much entertainment to all the students, when in reality its just a crappy piece of plastic with a hole running through the middle of it and a few out the sides.
Isn't it funny how everything is just so cool when you're in single digits.
Then the majority of people turn cynical.
Neat.